New Year's Resolutions.

Some of mine are:
Get higher grades than I do now.
Keep my room cleaner.
Be more organized with my plans.
Get involved in more activities.
Be happy.
Have no or less drama.
And eat healthier. :)

What are yours?

Well, this is my last post of 2009. Woaaaah. Isn't that sad?
I remember last year watching the countdown, and I absolutely hated watching Taylor Swift and Joe Jonas in New York. I was sad. D:
But Joe was a jerk lol. Yesterday, I looked at pictures of his new hair.
I was like WTF?! D: And now Kevin is married.
It seems like yesterday they were all young. .___.

Here is my summary of 2009.
It started as normal.
Then it got amaaazing.
Then confusing.
Then depressing.
And now, it's better.
It's a good way to end the year.

I say that the depressing part has helped me.
Through that, I met a lot of new friends that I have now.
And I thank each and everyone of them. Or, I'd still be confused and depressed.
2009 has helped me live and learn.
And I hope 2010 is more awesome.
NO MORE DOUBLE ZEROS! D: hahaha. :)

My life,

is not the way I want it to be.
This school year has just been the toughest for me.
Like, what happened earlier with me, almost losing a friend just a week ago, and now it's my familly.
Sometimes, I really hope that something good will happen that will make me happy.
With no doubts whatsoever.
In the past years, something good comes along, that makes me happy.
But, it brings me lots and lots of doubt. Especially what was going on in the summer.
I knew what was going on, but I was too afraid to ask. Like, I'd get a lie out of that one person.
And after hearing all that has been going on, and realizing that it was a lie, still hurts me.
I hate it when the closest people to me, completely hide something from me that crushed me for months.
Everytime something good comes a long, it turns out to be terrible and depressing.
The facade crumbles. I don't want to hide what I am feeling anymore.
And my feelings are confusing all the time.

But, I am okay now. I just wish something would come along. In my whoooole life, something always goes wrong. Never in my life there was one moment where everything is okay.
Even thought it felt like it was okay and happy, it really wasn't when you really look at reality.
Life, just isn't fair. Especially mine. I get the short end of the stick.
I always listen to people about their happy lives. Like, I'm okay now.
I just wanna be that happy. And, I hate what I have to do to make others happy.
But I do it for them.
I just really really want to be happy. .___.
"And I'm tired, of being all alone. And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home."
Is that too much to ask for?

All that I have to say is:

Stuff has happened.
It was baaaaad.
I really can't tell you what happened.
Or other things could happen and arise.
I need a break.
We need to relax. Seriously.
Katelyn doesn't need to get hurt again. D:
My last post was sad, and sorta harsh. But
that problem is fixed.
But then some don't understand and I'm like UGHHHH.
Christmas break is almost here and
I need to focus on my grades. :S

Oh Phyll, I wish you had yer phone back. .___.

I need to blog.

Dear you,

As of right now, I am very upset, and crying.
Out of nowhere, you hurt me even more than you already had.
You're building much stress on my shoulders, and you don't even care.
I can't take it anymore. I am done.
Okay? Happy?
Is this what you wanted?
To be happy with a person you don't even know and hurt your friends that are here.
To hurt someone even more, even though you don't even mean it?
You can't change the world. And you can't change what has happened.
Well, good job. You just hurt someone. Again.
Leave me alone. You don't know me anymore.
I'm only stating my opinion for what I believe is right for my friend because they asked me for it.
Don't blame this all on ME and my best bud, okay?

3 snow days in a row.

So. These past days have been quite..weird.
It was the first time in years that Nebraska has been hit hard in a blizzard like this year's.
I loove it though. It's awesome.
I'm finally ungrounded. FOR GOOD.
YAAAAAAY! And I'm being serious now.
I just got ungrounded 30 minutes ago, I'm going to get my phone back when I get a phone card because mine is pre-paid. So, I'll be texting again soon. :)
Yesterday I finally got out of the house. I went to Phyll's with Heather there to make a snowman. But, instead we didn't and watched Harry Potter. But the funny thing is we weren't even watching the movie. We were like, in deep conversation. With Phyll's mom. We talked about Mitchell and Heather. I don't really know much about it, but now I know about it. I get it. And I don't think that it's fair on some 'circumstances', but somewhat you gotta obey the parents. And Heather's a really great girl, and I hope she gets to be happy with him someday again. :)
Then we talked about religion, found out that I had no school today. I jumped up and screamed in excitement because I wanted to stay over at the Kunz's house with Heather and Phyll, but I couldn't. >____> But on the good side, there's sick people in the Kunz household. So, lucky me. :)
Thanks for watching out for me, Jesus. :)
My step-dad has food poisoning. What's gross is that the bathroom was right next to my bedroom, and..I woke up to the sound of him puking. D: So I got my mp3 out and blasted it this morning. What a lovely day to wake up to that. .__.
I hope I don't get sick. Really. 2 people has gotten the flu this week in my house. I don't like throwing up. It makes me cry, seriously. :(
And I'm stoked to get my hair dyed black. I don't know when. But, soon. :D I'll look like a REAL ASIAAAAAN. woasdfjaldkcawjoeiakljscmalkwefjcm.
And my life has been pretty happy now for the first time in 5 months. :)
Soo. Scoooore!
And my friend went down to Mexico for Christmas. She doesn't know if she's coming back. ):
And I told that one guy I didn't like him like that. I cried. Seriously. I felt soo bad. But, he took it okay. I explained it to him well, and he took it okay. So. My problems are ceasing. :) No worries.
Life is getting perfect. Again. I realize what I thought I needed is really what I don't need right now. You have no more worries, the weight is off your shoulders, and I'm...free.
I've been looking at the good things, and. It made me soo happy. Today is the start of a new year it seems like. Friends are important. I need to keep those friendships, I've lost so many these days. And I need to focus on my grades, future, and family. That's all I need. :)
I'm thankful for everyone that are in my life..and I know I wasn't here to say that I was thankful for anything on thanksgiving..because I was grounded. So happy late Thanksgiving! Bahaha.

So on my snow day, I was soo bored I finally decided to get on MSN. It was my middle school way of communicating, and I realized that I have a microphone attached to my laptop, so what was awesome was that my friends and I were in a 3-way chat, and we just made hilarious voice clips back and forth. It was AMAZING. It went on for like, 5 hours straight.

Anyways, this is getting WAAAAAY too long. So, I'm done nowww.
El fin. :)

Soooo....

My life has been crazy like I said, and everyone else's life around me.
People are sad. When people are sad, Katelyn is not okay. Katelyn gets sad.
Like this -----> )':
But, when I look at my life, and compare mine to others, I'm like, WOW.
I'm pretty pathetic. x____x I should shut uuup when it comes to me. Baha.
But, that fact does help me to get over with my own problems. Which is now making me stronger at this moment, I'm getting over that 'something' in great progress. SAAYY WHAT?!
Ohhhh yeaah. I effin' raaaaaawk. :P

Selena,
I really wish I could do something to make everything better. Fo serious.
Right now I feel completely helpless because I have noo idea what to do and I am like, 1,000 miles away.
All that I can do, is just be there for you through sadness and the hard times. And pray. Lots and lots. ♥ Jesus loooves you! :D
Try not to focus on the bad things. I know it's hard, because I doing tried that before. And yet I still think of the bad things, no matter what. We can't help it at all. What I do, is I let all the grief out. Don't hold it in. That just makes it waaaay worse. Been there. D: My youth leader told me to let all the grief out. Although, it did take a while for me to be in the okay stage.
Try to be optimistic.
Look at the good in life of what you have now. Whatever else that makes brings you down, stay away from. Avoid those things. Try building yourself back up. There's always something out there that can hurt you even more on top of all of this. Be cautious. Anything can happen.
I will try my best with what I can do. Everything will be okay. It can't rain forever. The sun will shine through with a purttyyy rainbow. :)
I'm your sister, you help me, and I'll help you my dear. :)

___________________________

And, other random things. My friend came back from the mental hospital. It's upsetting. Even she's sad. And her ex LOVES me. O___O But. I'm not ready to be in a relationship again. Actually, I don't want to be. I'm nooooot dating him after what he's done to my friend honestly. Even what she's had done to bug the crap out of other people's religious opinions. It doesn't really seem to bother me. All that I know is my religion is my own, hers is hers, and she can't change it. No matter how much she can trash talk about it. But whatever. She's my friend. I don't like leaving people out in the cold. I probably wouldn't date this guy anyways.
Also I am quite disappointed with another friend. Soo many reasons, I don't know what I should say. When I see her, I don't even want to talk to her anymore. And in the inside I'm like AHHHHHHHHHHHH. I wanna RIP her hair out. x___x
I need to get ungrounded. And get my phone back. Seriously. I miss it. ):
And I need to stop procrastinating. Time for homework.

UGH. And for you, teenage life. You suuuck. I hate you. Stop hurting my friends and I. Or I'll have shoot you in the head. >_______>

Okaaaaaaaaaaaaayz.

Phyll. :)
I'll ask my mommy todaaaaaay after school.

I'll say it's for church and we're going to celebrate holy day! And it's a huuuuuuuuge thing.
So. She just might say yes I think. :D

O___o

Dear Selena,

I just have to say that I am now okay with that boy. And I am for sure that I am moving on from him. Well, you know why. D: You're getting full details on this on facebook dear. :P

The world. Is crazy. You'd never know what will happen next. Things change, bad to good. And right now, I guess good has happened to me. It's a shocker. But I'd have to say. This one person I told you about Selena, is making me very happy at the moment.

And I agree with you. Everyone needs to be friends and get along. And be happy and make some nommity nom nom cookies! :) Riiiiiight?

I love you Selena. And I loves Phyll too. :)

And I still haven't asked my mom to go to the church, Phyll. I'm scared. D: And I didn't get grounded because you took me home last night lol :P

I'm okay now.

Major venting down there.
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Why does everyone leave? :(

In my life. Why. ): It's either some of them just walk out of my life soooo easily.
As if I meant nothing. Do you know how that feels?
Or some of them move or have to leave for a while.
It all started at the beginning of this year.
I lost a friend, because they were upset that I dated this boy.
They knew that he wasn't a good person to date. Especially with all the girls he liked and moved on previously before me. I was too selfish. And I wanted to be in a relationship with that person. So bad. I followed my heart and, I lost her. And I tried to make everything work out. But nothing ever did.
Now, look what happens. That boy has been lying to me, and hid many secrets.
That's not the way he is. It upsets me because..everything is different. He is different. My friends were right. They were yelling at me that he would hurt me and leave. And they wouldn't be there to make me feel better. :/ Ouch. That's harsh.
Why can't it be easier? Seriously. He has it waaaaaay easier. And he's being happy and everything. I don't think I deserve all of this...what did I do wrong? I don't understand.
I never had a chance. I guess everything, was fake. i didn't get a chance for something real. Because I was the girl who is left out in the cold.
Now. It's like. Should I be friends? Or not. Because..the friendship previously was awesome. Brother and sister-like. And I'm not the type of girl who can let go in a blink of an eye. It's too painful and I don't see how I can even let go. Part of me tells me I should, but the other is like no.
No one can help me with this part. And, it's the most difficult.
2 friends lost...
The others had to leave, or move. 3 of them.
And all 5 of them were all close to my heart.
But the one that hurts me the most is the one I mostly wrote about.
Is it okay to want something back?
....
No. I guess. :/

I am...

finally ungrounded. :)

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

*cry of happiness.*

But I still have no phoooooone. >____>
My guess is. I just may get a new phone very soooon. :)

Selena, :)

OHMYGOSH I didn't see New Moon yet. :/ Who knows. I will soon? D:
And Taylor Lautner is a freakin' beaaaaaast.
BLOOD WORK? D:
Holy craaaaaap. :( I hope you are okay now.
I feel horrible for not having my phone and laptop to talk to you.
But. I hope you have neither diabetes or depression. I'd cry. D':
Fights. Ugh. Boys are stupid. .___________.
And. I finally get to dye my hair black! :D
I didn't know you dyed your hair black though. Haha. Coincidenceee. :P
My cousin is learning in a college of hair design. So I'm her 'guinea pig.' D:
It won't be that bad though. :) There's one color with a tint of purple that I want. :D
I'm excited.
My thanksgiving was okay. My asian family came up here in Nebraska City and met Father Cyza. :D hahaha. awesome news. :P
And I don't want to go to school in 30 minutes.
:(

Dear Selena and Phyll, :)

Hello. :D
I'm still grounded. D:
But I have time to make it on my blog on weekdays. As the looks of it, I think I'm almost ungrounded. Or I'll just get my laptop and phone back and stay home the whole week. >_____>
The whole week was okay I guess. Really boring though. D: Because I MISS YOU GUYS. :( It's sad.
And it's almost been a week since I talked to you both. D:
My grades are getting better though. So, I'll probably be ungrounded by thanksgiving or earlier. I don't know.
Uhhhhh.
There's nothing that really happened over the week with me.
So. Please blog guys and fill me in. :D

Love,
Katelyn. :)

SOMEONE HELP ME PLEEEEEASE.

I AM SO CONFUSED. >_____<
FML. I am always confused.

So. There is this guy who likes me, and wants to date me.
He's SUPER nice, one of he nicest guys in my school that are hard to find.
One of my friends told me about him. I was surprised actually.
I didn't think some guys would like me. Bahaha. I have low self-esteem.
Last night me and this guy talked. It was cute, and awkward actually.
He found ways to make me blush. Then, he got on the topic of my past.
.......................
._________.
Apparently EVERYONE knows what happened. And everyone knows
that it torn me to pieces. They don't know everything. But he started talking to me about it.
Like, if I still had feelings for 'him', he would help me through it. Then I'm just like...
do I still have feelings for him? AND I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO. But, sooo it's hard.
I'm so tired of thinking that I may have feelings for him. It makes me sad.
A couple days ago Lexi, one of my friends said
she understands if I still do, because it was a pretty long relationship,
for kids in High School. I don't really know if I do or not....
Then again, I think really like this guy. I just have to get to know him better and see what happens.

On a happier note, Happy Halloween everyone!!!!!! :D

I MISSED MY LAPTOP. D:

I HAS IT BACK NOW THOUGH. :D

I am suuuuuuper happy. :) And a lot has happened since I got it taken away from me.

McDonald's has opened hahaha.
Selena is now a vegetarian.
Ammon and I are okay now.
The Halloween Party was awesome.
I am soon becoming un-grounded.
Megan is starting college finally.
I ordered an awesome yellow bridesmaid's dress
for my mom's wedding.
I think I like someone. O___O :)
And.
THIS IS IT came out in theatres. :)
But, I don't know if I'm going to see it.
I have to ask my mom first, and maybe have some people go with me.

:) YAY.

So. Halloween Party. Was awesome. Phyll did my make up freakin' awesome. It made me look SUPER ASIAN. :D Although, I was really pale. I'm sorta tan-ish. I had to leave early though. :( But. My mom was like, 'You were home on time. Good job. You get your laptop back.' :D Well. That makes me happy. But Cyza came later. He should have came as Edward Cullen hahaha. :)
It would have been awesome. I swear...he looks like Edward Cullen. Still.

I AM SUPER HAPPY! :D
I think I am stress-free from drama now.
This means I can do my homework even better now. :) AHH.
Quarter 2 is going to be better. Because...quarter 1 was crappehhhh.
And. I think I know who I want to go to Holiday with. :3
But. I am shy. So....UGH.

When frustration and confusion are mixed up into one.

Why?
Still. I ask that same question like, every single day.
It's been, like almost a month now? And the drama hasn't ended yet.
Now. I'm not really a person involved. I'm stuck in the middle. Friends are involved in it, I try to help. And when I try to help something else happens and BLAAAAAH.
I thought it would be over by now, and everyone would be content.
Generally the drama is caused by someone's actions? Doesn't that person get the clue YET? It's not okay when a person can just, walk off and go after something else. :/ I wouldn't do that. I couldn't.

Today I have mixed emotions and stuff. I really can't wait for this year to be over. It's been sucky. With all this drama. Soon, I know that God will get me out of this ordeal, but most importantly for friend to get out of it.
To top this all off, I am grounded. I cannot talk to this person everyday to make sure she's okay and stuff.
GAH.


This whole thing makes me want to punch a baby.
D: I wouldn't do that though.

Please God, help us pleeeeeeeeeeease. :/

D:

Dear blogging world,

Sorry I has no update in like, a week. D:
Right now life has been boring. I'm currently grounded.
So most of my time I am at home watching TV being lazy. And today I watched Tarzan. I loved it. :3 BAHAHA. I love you Selena. :)

Lately I have been practicing on my driving. Usually I would have no time because each day I would be out with friends or being gone for pep band. Now. I am awesome at driving. Well, actually I have been since driver's ed. Well, not really. HAHA. I was a SCARY driver then.

Today our Life Skills class went on a field trip to the prison in Lincoln. It was CREEPY. Seriously. The fences there are WICKED. The little springy things at the top are like 100 times bigger than a toy slinky! O__________O And the inmates there are creepy. I was scared. My heart was pounding fast the whole time. I didn't want to die. Then this lady had to search us. She touched our...O__O Yeah. Our 'girls' here up top. It. Was. Uncomfortable.
OH. We went to Super Valentino's also. The fire alarms went off. I was like, 'WTF. Where is the fire?' Apparently, the cooks in the kitchen had a minor fire. The alarm was annoying. I got ice cream. I overflowed the bowl with caramel, chocolate, butterscotch, sprinkes, and of course ICE CREAM. Twist ice cream. YUUUUM. I made a mess that went down to my elbows. AMAZING.

Today. I had tons of retarded moments. Like, today. Michael called me stupid. >______> Tracy usually gets hi for that. Then I'm like saad and everything. 'Tracy...Michael called me stupid again like earlier..." :(. Tracy's like, no he didn't. He called you RETARDED like 2 minutes ago. D:
OHMYGOSH. It was hilarious. But, it was sad at the same time. HAHAHA. Only I would be THAT stupid at times. >____<

For halloween I'm going to be Snow White. :D I'm excited. Phyll is doing my make up.
It.
Will.
Be.
Awesome. :D

Oh. And what I have noticed that ticks me off. My 'M' button on my laptop isn't working well. So I have to push it hard twice or 3 times. It makes me paranoid.
>________<

Okay. I go beddy bye now. It's early for me usually. But I went to sleep at 1 last night. I'm super super duper tired.
Goodnight, world. :3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATIE! (:

Okay. So, yesterday I was sooo busy. I didn't get a chance to post a special blog for you, Katie. (: Even though I texted you saying happy birthday, and telling you happy birthday each time I saw yer face. But I wanted to post a special bloooooog. :D Well, I was online at mid-night when I got home...but when I got on I just turned my laptop off and slept like a baby. ^_^

Sooo...HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU SEXY BEAST. You are now 16. So rub it in my face. ): I am so young. And you can drive as soon as I can. FML haha. (:

Hahaha. Katie and I were trying to be sexy models for Lupe's car. xD I think we succeeded at that part. Riiiiiight? (:

Overall, we had a great time celebrating her birthday while we ate at El Portal with 10 people. We watched 'The Hangman's Curse' afterwards. And. I thought it was going to be super super scary. If you are a HUUUGE fan of scary movies that make you wanna crap your pants, I wouldn't recommend it. It's a good movie, it makes you think though. But if you want something REALLY scary, then don't watch it. (: Everything went well. T he only thing that went wrong was Hannahkinz got sick who is the host for the sleep over. ): We were going to have a combined birthday party/sleep over for both Hannah and Katie, but Hannah caught the flu (possibly from me D:). But today I got to see her, and she is just doing fine. Heather, Hannah and I went on a little mini photo adventure at Arbor Lodge. Heather left her key in the car while her car was locked. So she had to call her dad and when her dad answered she thought it was Ammon. Ummmm....awkward? Everything is awkward when someone mentions Ammon now days xD But it was actually it was Mr. Kunz. He sounded so young on the phone today. Hahaha. He came 10 minutes later, and he grew a beard. O__________O I haven't seen him since..a couple weeks? And he has a beard. >_> I was paranoid. I wasn't used to his random beardyness. xD
Then later I went to Phyll's house eating chinese food! :D And watched Pride and Prejudice. I was sooooo tired. And I was tempted to sleep when Phyll's mom was sleeping on the couch. But, Pride and Prejudice was soo good, I didn't fall asleep. (:

Right now my little brother's friend is sleeping over. SUPER FML.
That means they'll be reaaaaaally loud during the night. And I have to get up at 7:00 in the morning to get ready for church at St. Mary's, then Phyll wants to go the Esopical Church. I think that's how you spell it. >_<>

Selena Elyse Petters.....^_^

IS MY BEST FRIEND! (:

:D
I LOVE YEW.
<3

Blech. D:

Today I am stuck at home, sick. D: I have the stomach flu and a cold combined. >_> I woke up this morning and I just BLEEEEEEECH. I frew up. :(
And I have been sleeping lots and lots. I got 12 hours of sleep. :3 Hahahahaha.
Well. Other than that,
yesterday Katie and I went on a PHOTO ADVENTURE in Arbor Lodge! ^_^
I <3 photo adventures.

Here are some of them:


I post de rest on facebook. ^_^



And...lately things have been okay. The weekend was fast. Our band this year for Harvest of Harmony wasn't so good as last year. :/ WE WERE AWESOME LAST YEAR. But, I guess we were generally okay this year. Tyler is in Idaho all this week. He's been helping me to be happy. (: So, this week, I'll miss him. D: Then, I think Hannah is finally having her birthday party this weekend? Last year's was FUUUN! And hopefully my mother will let me go to the concert in Omaha that last until 2 in the morning. :P If she doesn't, I will cry. D: Other than that, if I feel better tomorrow, school will be boring and I dun wanna go back. :/
OHMYGOSH. The phone just rang, and it was an unknown caller. It's something for my mom with this lady that speaks Vietnamese. I kinda understand it..but not really. It makes me paranoid when I don't understand it that well!!! >_< So. I can't wait to learn it this summer. :P


OHHH! AND I GOT THIS AWESOME PANDA HOODIE BAG FROM HOT TOPIC! :D His name is Pony. (: Katie helped me name it...then she was like...NO. But, I came up with this studly awesome idea: PONY PWNS OTHER BAGS. :D Yeah. Pony pwns. ^_^ I love him! ROFLMAO.

Photography. :D And some other random stuff. And me rambling. :P

So. This week I started taking pictures with my crappy pink camera.
My mom has been REALLY thinking..that she might get me an awesome SLR camera.
:DDDDD
I'm so excited. I'll be posting random awesome pictures that I took and edited on here.
Maybe facebook too. I dunno I'm debating.

Here are some of them :
An alley behind my house. This picture, is my FAVORITE.

The brick road that I live on. I love brick roads. Sooo much. :)

My shadoooooooow. :)



I love this one. :)

Let's just say, that I am REALLY happy now. I found soo many friends who cared and I made so many new ones lately, then I realized that this jerk wasn't really worth it. Everyone says that. At least 3 times a day. And they're right.
I shouldn't have made it into a big deal. But whoever girl dates him next, I just gotta say: GOOD LUCK with thaaaaaat. :P

Today Lupe, (Loopay) Katie, Britney, and myself went to El Portal. It was amazing. And the food was, like alwaaaaaays. (: We tried this Ocheta drink. It was freakin' goooooood. Everyone at our table tried speaking Spanish when we ordered food. Well, me and Britney = FAIL. Lupe and Katie = PRO. Spanish is Lupe's main language. And Katie is taking German 1. And I fail. >_> Gaaah.
This Saturday our school band is going on a LOOOOOOONG trip to Grand Island. I'm excited. Even though I have to get up at 5 in the morning on a Saturdaaaaay. >_< I just love playing in the parade there. It's a lot bigger than any other parades of the year. Plus. We go to the mall afterwards. :D YAAAAAAAAY. :)

Okay. I'm getting tired. So. That's all. :)
Baibai. :D

Wake me up, when September ends.

BAHAHAHAHA. I
Seriously.
I CAN'T WAIT.
Until September ends.

This month has been awesome, and just plain old awkward all the way on the other side.
Please. Just end.
October sounds fun. I just might to go that Sokol concert under ground thingy with Phyll. And Ammon. O_o And maybe more people will go. I'm gonna be soooo tired because. I get home around 2 in the morning. :D Then Hannah, Britney, Alex and I are dressing up as the Backstreet Boys. :D Then the Harvest of Harmony, (the after part :P ) going to this preeeeeeettty church with Phyll, and there's LOTS more. I just cannot think. My brain is dead. >_<

This week may have the potential to be crappy. My phone wasn't working Sunday. The day before it didn't either. But it had like $.10 left. Messages being sent to me wouldn't get onto my phone. O_o It was weird. But here's my point. I couldn't call my mother to tell her where I was going. AND I HAD TO HELP GET SHOESIES FOR CUTE LITTLE GIRLS. I was on a mission. ^_^ For Cyza. I came home around 3. My mom freaked out on me. So. I'm grouned. For this whole week. That means no going out with friends late on school days. :( I hate being bored at home. :( And I'm gonna miss mah Phyll. :(

Today was another crappy day at school. First. Mr. Olsen made our band marching charts sooo confusing .Once again. For the football half time show this week. PHYLL YOU ARE GOING. :D KTHNX. :) Then. That's probably when I can hang with friends again. YAY.
And. Briann hasn't gave me my pants back. O_O
See. I went to her house. And. I left my pants...on her bed. O_O
BAHAHAHA. Just to change in a purrrrrrty 50's old dress that I didn't have time to change back to. Stupid. Darn. Curfew. My mom is SOOO strict. It driiiiives me insane.

And I'd like to have the super power to read minds too like Selena does. :D
Then. I wanna fly. TO VIRGINIA!!! And have a party. (:
Yup.


Well. Peace out mah homieeeeeeees.
(:

Random bloggyness. :D

I don't know what to exactly call this blog entry. But. There's A LOT I have to say.
First off. Selena. SHE'S AHH-MAZIN! :) And lately, Nebraska is crappy. There's drama in my school. And yesterday 2 girls got in a physical fight in the hall. Then in Varsity Singers, I was pondering that I NEED TO GO TO VIRGINIA. :D That's how good of a friend I think she is.
I.
Already.
Wanna.
Visit.
:)
It's quite amazing how people can become good friends in one loooong conversation on facebook. :P

Yesterday. I was bored. Again. So Phyll and I were going to do...I don't know exactly what we were planning actually lol. We randomly went to Sapp's. Then Heather was at the antique mall next door, what a coincidence. We met her college friend. Ammon was there. Everywhere around him it just has been strange and awkward. Anyways. That place has LOTS of salt and pepper shakers. And. I need to go there again to get that 30's lookin' dress. :D Yes, I love old stuff. :D And Phyll found a cute small book of New Testament of the Bible. ^_^ It was cute.

AHHH. And one thing that made me maaaaaaaaad. There's one girl who completely sabotaged one of my friend's relationship. Just so SHE can have him. She LIKED him. And my friend LOVED him. Now. He's dating someone else. And my friend is just suffering. AHHHH! It makes me wanna rip my HAIR OUT! :S Now, I death glare at that manipulative girl when I see her.
Gaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

Today my phone won't work. :( Some days I don't understand why he did the things he did. Then I regret what things happened during that time period. And. I LOVE Fruit Stripes gum. Notice, I didn't say bubble gum. You can't even blow bubbles with it. >_> I should sue. But. I wouldn't. It's too yummy to sue. :D

Ummm. I'm really hungry. Ima get some breakfast! :D
The end? Yep.

The Adventures of our band in Hamburg. :D

Todaaaaaay was fun. :) Well, besides the marching part. We waited for an hour just standing in these hot uniforms out in the sun. Mr. Olsen wanted to be one of the first bands there so we can leave earlier. >_> But still, ugh. Everyone sweated like crap, and we all smelled like crap. No one really cares though. Then my right shoulder hurted again. :( It started to cramp during the parade, but I was okay. I didn't cry. :P
So I took tons of pictures. A LOT. Sorry. But these pictures are just hilarious. And, it's a good way to document my life. My mom has been bugging me about what to put for my senior gradaution party ALREADY. It's tooooo early. Duuuuuh. :P Okay. I'm done. Take a look at the pictures below. :P

Alissa and I. This is the only one with the date stamp. But I turned it off after this one. :P

Millie and I. No date stamp. :D

These are the pants I HATE! Bahaha. Random picture. But it just fits me awkwardly hence I'm proportioned weird.

Love birds sitting by each other. ^_^

Katie forgot her Clarinet. Bahahaha.

Then Britnie forgot her music. xD


They made it back on time. :D Katie's like "NO PICCHURS PLEZ!"


Sadie stole my camera. And what the eff? Jacob? Uhhmmm.


Katie acted like a dog. This is the most hilarious picture...EVER.

This is the handle thingy on our capes. :D What I do with it is I act like Dracula or Superman or something... xD

Alissa was hyper after the parade. Out of no where she started laughing, for no reason. Eventually she laughed so hard she fell off the bus seat. I did not push her off. I swear! xD

Then we were off to Arby's afterwards. Katie drove. O_O Alissa was going to meet up with us there.

Of course with her mother in the car. :) Duhhhhh.


Alissa came along after 30 minutes of waiting for her to get to Arby's. >_> She think the seat thingys there are small. Well...I think they're huge. :( My feet won't even touch the ground. :(



Alissa laughs like this. It's hilarious. Bahahahahahahaa! xD


I love Katie's look in this one. :3

I was messing with my camera, and I taped a video. Alissa was staring at me. O_o You can't hear anything...but I was like "Alissa??? Are...you okay?" Jeeeeez. I freak out when people stare at me like that. xD

So this is it. Tons of pictures, and 1 video. This is long. I'm going to stop..riiiiiiiight......now.

BYE!!!!!!!! :D

P.S. Wait, Katie and Alissa, if you're looking at this. I LOOOOOOOOVE YOU GUYS! :D
Ahahahaha. Okay. Now. BYE! :)

P.S.S. Crap, sorry. I'm also going to blog about Homecoming week...and tons of pictures, again. :D Okay. I'm serious now. BUH BYE! :)

Random things that are occuring.

My day was booooooooooring after school. So I decided to make a blog! :D Actually, I wanted to blog since ever. I just never could figure it out, and I didn't know that they have this blogspot thingy. But I found this site just a while ago. And..it was sad at first when I found this site. But now everything is okay, and I hope it stays like this. :) Aaaaaaand I'm going to try to get more people to blog. Because it's freakin' awesome.

Anyways. High School is going great so far this year. It has been a rough summer, and a rough start this year. But, I hope it gets better to the point where there's no worries about anything, and I can relaaax and be stress-free! :D Tomorrow I have to march in the parade in Hamburg for Popcorn Days. >_> I really hate parades. Here's the reasons.

1. I hate sweating. And in our uniforms, you would sweat after a parade if it was 50 degrees out.
2. I have to keep my flute straight and horizontal from the ground, and after every parade, I nearly cry because my right shoulder is in sooo much pain from keeping it horizontal. >_>
3. I hate my pants....the uniform pants. xD Yeaaaah. They are weird. And funky.
4. And I hate the after-smell. Everyone smells soo bad. Combine that with the uniforms equals D:

Yepp. True stuff. And also. This freshman boy, Alex, keeps calling me right now as I type. He left me a voicemail, and he is wondering if I'm at the game so I can talk to him........I'm not at the game. He's kinda...scary. I don't really talk to him that much. If I do, he'll keep talking and talking. Then he'll like ask me more stuff about my personal life. Uhhh. I barely know him. And I'm NOT ending this relationship now to date him. He keeps asking me about this one I'm in now. >_> This kid drives me insane.

Also. Next week is Homecoming week!!! Another band-related thing: we are going to do a show out on the field...again! Man...I miss doing that. It's soooo fun. :) And I have no idea what I'm going to wear for super star day on Monday. :/ Crap. On the other side, I'm excited for the dance. :) Yaaaaaaay! :)

Another thing I just thought of before I posted this. My mom is going to let me go to church with the Kunz's Sunday again. :D See, the first times I went to The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints in town, I loved it the first time. Everyone was sooo nice to me, tons of people greeted me. I love it when they give you the little glass of water and bread. I don't know actually what they call it...but my old church calls it communion. My church serves grape juice. They serve water. And the funny thing is they pass them differently. Every time that tray is passed to me I'm like, "Oh my goodness, please don't drop it...I'll be an embarrassment to the whole church!!!" I'm surprised that I haven't dropped it yet. I'm so clumsy. ^_^ When I go to church here I don't really experience the Holy Ghost like I do at the Methodist church. So, thanks to Hannah Kunz for taking me there. :) But I met up with Elder Charlesworth and Elder Devoe. They invited me to get baptized...September 12th. Which was supposed to be TOMORROW! :/ My mom wouldn't let me. Until I'm 18. She disagrees with the church soooo much. They're christian. Yet she doesn't believe that they aren't. She doesn't understand what I love about the church so much. When I told her about the baptism...she flipped. A week she wouldn't treat me the same. It was upsetting. Other family members tried to back me up to become Mormon. Then I would just cry. They weren't yelling at me or anything...I just cried. I don't know why. I really wanted to be baptized. But I guess after a week everything is good. My mom will let me go to the church, when ever I wanted *coughcough* which is EVERY Sunday. Maybe seminaries in the morning I could go once in a while. But I'm going to church this Sunday and I'm excited. Elder Charlesworth is just funny and right now I miss him. xD Elder Devoe doesn't really talk much...but when he does, he makes me laugh. It's like, they're serious about teaching you then they goof off. Pssht. Men. And Elder Charlesworth is leaving this month. :/ I wanted him to baptize me but I'll wait till I'm 18 and he better be here in Nebraska when I get baptized to baptize me. Right now I'm just going to keep learning, going to church, and never give up for what I believe. Maybe Mom will cool down once she realizes that I'm still the same person when I go.

And today is September 11th. In American History, Mr. Ritchie let us listen to a song that The Eagles wrote 8 years ago on this very day. I think The Eagles are a 60's or 70's band? I dunno. I liked it. I got tears in my eyes actually. I get sooo emotional, it's ridiculous. I would cry if I saw a dead squirrel on the road. :'( But I remember that day on 9/11.....I was in 2nd grade and teachers in the class were getting phone calls from the school office. And their faces and reactions...they were trying to be calm as possible. And it was scary. We knew something was wrong. But we were too young to understand everything happened that day. So today I just thought more about the 9/11 attack then the previous years. P.S. Mr. Ritchie is the awesomest teacher ever!!! I hate it when he leaves for golf though, he's never there the last hour. :/ And he showed us a scary video about Michael Jackson's 'ghost' in his home called Neverland. And this scary dude popped out and screamed! From animations. I screamed. Like a girl. >_> Gaaaah.

Sooo that's what's been on my mind lately. And many other things. So I should stop typing now...this blog is getting pretttttttttyyyyyy long isn't it? And I made my point on this post. :) Success! First blog! WHOO! Okay. I'm done now. :)

Byyyyyyyyye! :)