This song pretty much sums up everything..

Bittersweet Life by My Favorite Highway.

Lonely, stubborn and complacent,
You have insisted on leaving me here.
Writing the same song I started last year.
Lovely conjunctions and phrases,
Plays on a few words that you never meant.
I must have misread all of the signals that
you never sent.

It's a bittersweet life, and it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,I have loved and lost my heart along the way.

Maybe I could still hold you, or you could call if you feel so inclined.
Please take your time locating whatever you're trying to find.
And maybe it's time to let go, but I'm too scared and so unprepared.
How do I forget every moment in time that we shared?


It's a bittersweet life, and it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,I have loved and lost my heart along the way.

I'm calling your bluff,
I have toyed with the idea of burning your stuff.
This is so rough, and it's as if deserting me wasn't enough.
Well I've had enough, I'm calling your bluff.


It's a bittersweet life, and it's leaving me a-ok.
It's a bittersweet life,I have loved and lost my heart along the way.

Have you ever..?

Felt so close to someone of the opposite gender, that your past relationship with someone seems like nothing?
I love it. When I talk to this person, I forget everything about it. Even if we do talk about that certain subject about them now with his new girl, I don't seem to care. When I lay here in bed and think about it, I doesn't seem to phase me.
Sign? I hope so. I've had mixed feelings. Like, hate. Not really hate, but immensely dislike. Gah. I nearly have a cow looking at their face. Which kind of sucks, because it's kinda bad. Kinda miss him as a friend though.
But having the ability to talk to this specific person, erases everything about him from my memory. It's amazing.

Tonight I went star trippin' for the first time. Soo fun. I was high on star trippin'. :)
Aaaaaaaand.
I'm so excited for Expressions and City Singers next year. (:
I'm pretty sure you knew, but gaaah. Can't wait to sing. And dance. (:

I made it to..

CITY SINGERS AND VARSITY SINGERS! (:
I'm so excited.
Next year should be better!
It's summer now, and I'm FREE! :D

The End of Sophomore Year.

It still seems to me that I have a whole month of school left to do. I only have one actual day of school left, and 2 final days..which I got out of most of my classes..I only have to take 2 finals, and one of them is just an ice cream party. BAHAHA WHOOOT!
I hate this period of time though, you get all sad..missing all your friends and everything. Sure, you get to sleep in and not learn or do homework, but the friends you get to see everyday for at least 7 hours is the number one thing that I'll miss about school. I just hate that feeling where I'm sitting in bed being bored, with no friends around.
This year has gone by super fast. A lot faster than last year. I remember the beginning of this year I was just like, "Please, let this year be over now.." And now, it's over. It wasn't that bad in the end. Things are starting to perk up, I guess.

Life's Not Always a Walk in the Park.

Gah. Especially in High School.
Today was a...I have no idea how to explain it.
It was sad, miserable, scary, okayish, and great, for the seniors.
I just had the most saddest conversation with somebody a while ago.
Today, I just exploded. As if I were a ticking time bomb. Everything was bottling up and I just randomly exploded and I had no control it.
But I finally got the chance to say what needed to be said.
After that I threw my phone out the window scared for the next reply.
I had 30 minutes to lay down and do my laundry to calm down. Then my curiosity killed me.
It wasn't so bad. But I know that this week is going to be different.

Oh well. I'll be okay. :/

Happy Mother's Day! :)

Title says all. :)

Uhm. Today my mom and I made a lot of egg rolls and crab ragoons. We had a huge lunch. I'm still stuffed. x__x

Little things give me hope.

Today wasn't such a good day.
I've been at home, and I have being home.
When I'm at home in my room working on homework, I tend to think really hard.
It sucks, because most of these thoughts make me sad.
Blah. I thought, maybe if talking to him makes me sad later on, maybe I shouldn't talk to him anymore? I don't know, it just...hurts a lot. And, maybe it will help.
Ugh.
I got a little emotional today because of it.

My brother had his singer choir concert. And when I could hear him, the only loud tenor, it made me smile. This cute adorable toddler was wearing a yellow dress, and she'd look at me and say, "Hi!" millions of times. She looks kinda young for saying hi, but she made my day. I was taking photos of my brother and she wanted to try and grab it, same when I was texting on my phone. It made my day. :)
Then, after I took a shower, I get the same missed call from that same guy. :D
He never leaves voicemails. I called him back, we talked for 12 minutes.
We talked about what we are doing this weekend, because he wants to hang, but I'm busy. I asked him if he could come with us to get our nails done and he was like...okaaaaaay! Bahah. And how I didn't wave back at him when he drove passed my house, I didn't realize it was him. Now I feel bad. :( Hahahaha. I couldn't stop smiling. He's so sweet. I can't wait for summer, because we are going to hang a looot. :)
I'm so glad how fast your mood can change.
I got a marker board and I put it right next to my bed. Now, I won't forget anything. :)
WHOO! :D

El fin. :)

Today,

was a great day.
My friend who was sad and talked to me randomly was in a good mood today.
It's rare to see this person cry, even though I saw it once, but it was nice to see them smile today. This year has been rough for them, and I still feel like Jesus how I made them feel better. Bahaha. :D Okay, maybe nooot Jesus, I shouldn't compliment myself that much. :)

Boys soccer team won today at districts. WHOO.
And, I found out the guy I like only likes me as a friend. ._.
But it's all gooood. He's willing to hang out more, and see what happens.
yay?

I've been blogging a lot recently, but it makes me feel happy inside. :D
Oh and cross your fingers that Katie's little surgery would go well, and that she would be back on Wednesday. :D
And Britney's grandma will be okay with her heart.
Speaking of Britney, she has a b-day party this week.
I'm getting my nails professionally done for the first time. x__x
I'm so excited.

I don't know about you, but..

whenever someone is in a relationship, there is always drama.

And last night, I actually felt bad. But. I made the person feel better.
That's all that matters.

On another note, Phyll and I went to see Guys and Dolls at Lourdes.
We were both checking out the guy a same guy for 45 minutes or so.
I looked in my little booklet to see what his name was, and Phyll pointed at his name.
We siiilently laughed. It was the most awesomest thing ever.
Too bad he goes to Lourdes instead of public. :/ He was cute.'
Like, Taylor Lautner mixed with Leonardo DiCaprio and my ex-boyfriend.
Baha. :D
I have less than a month of school left, and SUMMERRR!

People who mean the most to you,

seem to let you down the hardest.
These kind of people you trust the most.
You want them to stay in your life forever,
and you would never expect them to lie to you,
betray you, or disappoint you.
And when they do either of those, it hurts the most.
But life goes on.