Just a random thought,

but, to me, it's odd to be in love with more than one person.
In High School, I have encountered 76786123 people who cannot choose between 2 people. (Of course, I'm over-exaggerating.) When I know I'm in love someone, which only happened once in my life, I don't focus on other people who are sorta attractive, I show no interest in them. I stay faithful, I keep my attention to one person. When I think about someone leaving me for someone else, it sounds harsh, and I know I wouldn't want to hurt someone like that. If that person claims that they love you, I'm pretty sure that they will expect and care enough that one of the most hurtful thing to do is to like someone else. Someone will be liked more, and the other would just be an option. This is why I think dating shows are over-rated and dumb. I have to admit that I do watch them sometimes in the past, mostly because I laugh at how dumb it can be. It would crush me to watch someone I have feelings for share close and romantic moments with some other person.
I have been hurt like that, most of you all know who read my blog. But just writing down my thoughts about this makes me realize that I was such a fool for being in pain on the inside for over 5 to 6 months. It's okay to be single and like a couple of people, but when you think you really love someone, then flirt with some other person the next, you have a chance to likely fall in love with another person and break someone's heart. Many of my friends have been hurt like this, and I cannot stand it. Knowing how that feeling feels, is terrible, and I don't want my friends to experience that kind of pain.
I know, this post is probably completely random. Recently I've just been thinking about love and stuff. I really really like this guy. I talked to him about my previous problems, and he listens to me hours on end about me being pathetic and complain, and he even understands. Now, I just want something to happen. I want to feel something, it will definitely help me to completely let go of things.
I've talked to my mom about love. She's like, 'Pssssh. You're young. You don't know what you are doing..' But I do know that, love is something that I want in the near future. Sure, I'm young. I just really hope I don't end up getting hurt again, which might happen, but the next time I know I'll be stronger and wiser than before.
I'm just so paranoid about who I tell 'I love you' to next. I'm definitely not going to say it after a 1st month of dating and do stupid stuff after that. This time, I'm going to take it slow.