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Having divorced parents, is hard.
Especially when they don't get along. At all.
I mean, I hate it when they say like, "Don't tell them this." or "Don't tell this blahblahblah." Both of them do that. It drives me insane. I hate keeping secrets from the both of them or I'd get in trouble by either parent.
My emotions about the divorce has been bottled up for years, and it's true.
I barely get to see my Dad like every other daughter gets to everyday.
I'm tired of my mom being stressed out from work trying to support us with our needs
I'm sick of the constant arguments.
And sometimes, I feel like..a terrible daughter. Like, I get in trouble for what I say that's true. They are MY emotions and I cannot control them.
My mom is one of the most wonderful person ever. She has been there for me always. She spends countless hours working so I can just have this laptop that I'm typing with. Even though she can be a pain, and can be really strict about what I do, she cares for me. She wants to protect me and now I understand. My mom is not dumb. I love her. And I don't care what other's think about her.

And my Aunt Lynda. She has been in my position over many situations, and she knows where I'm coming from. I appreciate that she stands up for me. She's a wonderful person. I have respect for her, and now days I barely get to see her, but I miss getting to spend time with her when I was little. I remember going to her little white house here in town, with her hamster. And I remember what her house smelled like. She tried to teach me how to drive on the country road, she taught me how to be more cleaner.

I just really want my family to get along. Where no one hates each other. Because me, Katelyn, is very emotional. It's been a long time since my family just had one thanksgiving with each other, but that won't happen. What I'm trying to say is, I want everyone to get along. And usually no one does. We shouldn't have an excuse where we can just say things about each other. That's wrong. And I'm like, 15? I've been maturing quite early..but if everyone gets along, it will help me and Michael to be less stressed and be happy. We've had our moments where we do wish that our parents were still together.
So, on this post where I said stuff back in December, I got super super stressed like crazy. I had to talk to this person about stuff that involves court and all of that. I hate court. I remember going into court when I was little, and I just bawled because I was scared. It was near Valentine's Day and Mom bought me a bear to comfort me. I was in 3rd grade...terrible experience.
And I don't want to go back there again honestly. And I don't want to hide something from my Mom. She's really important to me.
Pauline, I think she's a really nice lady. I mean, I probably did offend her, but I didn't really say anything really hurtful about her.
See, I had a boyfriend around Easter. It was awesome, it rocked. I was the happiest girl on the Earth. But, he cheated on me. Just like how my dad did to my mom. And it hurt sooooooooooo bad. And now I understand what my mom had to go through. Still today, I hurt.
I just don't know how I am going to handle taking this call. I really hate being sad...

P.S. this blog was not supposed to be hurtful in any way. please don't be offended. it's just my opinion.