If you're reading this and you never heard of Dare2Share, I hiiiiighly recommend that you should check it out. Seriously.
I've been to a Dare2Share conference 2 times.
Basically, Dare2Share is a gathering where thousands and thousands (about 7,000) teenagers & their youth leaders challenge each other to share the Gospel to people who may or might not believe in Christ. The first day you stay in the Pershing Auditorium for 5 hours, and the next day you stay their all day with breaks to go out to eat somewhere. Their is a Christian band that tags along with the Dare2Share ministries. Greg Stier and Zane Black are mostly the guys who host the gathering.
Each year, I cry. Dare2Share emotionally hits you hard. It's not a bad thing, but it makes me realize soo much each year. Every time I go I feel like a better person at each conference. This year's main topic was about sinning, and one of the sins that I have done has good/bad memories that I don't like to remember to this day. This beginning of the year I have been stressed out all the time, and the stress usually focuses on one main topic, and it sucks. I'm like, "Hey. When is this going to enddddddd?" I mean, I'm doing the right thing here. I'm watching out for my friends, I don't want them to get hurt like the way I have.
So the Dare2Share people gave us this tiiiiny piece of paper. It said, "What is one of the sins that you are most shameful of?" I knew exactly which one. Some of you guys who read my blog may know what sin I am talking about. Ever since I committed that sin everything started to tumble down, and God has been giving me signs that this is what happens when I do something I shouldn't have done. We put it the piece of paper in our pocket for a couple of hours when we did an activity outside of the conference to pick up trash at a school in Lincoln. We came back, Greg told us to take it out. Mentally I had what my shameful sin was on that paper. He told us to rip up that piece of paper into pieces, hold those pieces tightly and pray along with him. I don't remember exactly what he said during that prayer, because everything he said made me cry. But I knew what I was thinking, I was really sorry for what I have done and it has weighed me down ever since I committed that sin. After we prayed, I was still crying. Our youth leader picked up the pieces from my hands and whispered to me that I was forgiven, and I imagined God really telling me that. I have been ashamed for sooo long.
But I realized that it was finally time to let go and move on that day.
And now, I am completely free. It feels so great.
Dare2Share is awesome. It rocks.
I think that there should be more Dare2Share conferences. Many teens would love it.
It's an amazing experience.
Go to http://www.dare2share.org if you want to learn more. :)
That is all. :)
Byebye! :)
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Being sick at home. D:
Blah. I'm super bored. I have been throwing up. D:
And yet my parents think I'm crazy for being sick, and being on the internet.
Haha.
Well, I guess things are going okay as of now.
Still got to figure things out and fix stuff.
Yesterday was my Alexandra's 16th birthday. (:
She's getting soooooo OLD. And I'm still 15. >______> UGH.
Anywaaaays, here's what we did.
Ate at McDonald's and did some random shenanigans there.
And we watch the Time Traveler's Wife.
It was my 2nd time watching it, but I still bawled. That movie just tugs on my emotions hahaha. (: It was pretty fuuuuuuun.
Aaaaaaaaaaand.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDRAAAAA! :D
Anyways. I think I am going to go back to sleep. :) Hahaha. I hope I can go to school tomorrow.
And yet my parents think I'm crazy for being sick, and being on the internet.
Haha.
Well, I guess things are going okay as of now.
Still got to figure things out and fix stuff.
Yesterday was my Alexandra's 16th birthday. (:
She's getting soooooo OLD. And I'm still 15. >______> UGH.
Anywaaaays, here's what we did.
Ate at McDonald's and did some random shenanigans there.
And we watch the Time Traveler's Wife.
It was my 2nd time watching it, but I still bawled. That movie just tugs on my emotions hahaha. (: It was pretty fuuuuuuun.
Aaaaaaaaaaand.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALEXANDRAAAAA! :D
Anyways. I think I am going to go back to sleep. :) Hahaha. I hope I can go to school tomorrow.
Monday, February 22, 2010
I HATE
it when boys lie.
And think they can get away with it.
And they go ruin one of my best friends.
...
ugh.
And think they can get away with it.
And they go ruin one of my best friends.
...
ugh.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Randomness.
It's snowing and it's cold outside.
Joyous.
Ehh. I'm really hungry. Scalloped potatoes and ham is cooking in the kitchen.
Yum. :)
Last week has been pretty tough, over a ton of various reasons.
But I'm hoping this week will be a better one.
I've been thinking, I need to talk to my friend and set things straight.
And get their mind to work properly.
This friend, is just making dumb choices. :/
It has been stressing me out a whooole lot.
I hope what I have to say will make them think and change a little..
A friend will help me as well.
We're going to do it sometime this week, but I gotta get brave first. :S
Well. Wish me luck. D:
Joyous.
Ehh. I'm really hungry. Scalloped potatoes and ham is cooking in the kitchen.
Yum. :)
Last week has been pretty tough, over a ton of various reasons.
But I'm hoping this week will be a better one.
I've been thinking, I need to talk to my friend and set things straight.
And get their mind to work properly.
This friend, is just making dumb choices. :/
It has been stressing me out a whooole lot.
I hope what I have to say will make them think and change a little..
A friend will help me as well.
We're going to do it sometime this week, but I gotta get brave first. :S
Well. Wish me luck. D:
Friday, February 19, 2010
......
Having divorced parents, is hard.
Especially when they don't get along. At all.
I mean, I hate it when they say like, "Don't tell them this." or "Don't tell this blahblahblah." Both of them do that. It drives me insane. I hate keeping secrets from the both of them or I'd get in trouble by either parent.
My emotions about the divorce has been bottled up for years, and it's true.
I barely get to see my Dad like every other daughter gets to everyday.
I'm tired of my mom being stressed out from work trying to support us with our needs
I'm sick of the constant arguments.
And sometimes, I feel like..a terrible daughter. Like, I get in trouble for what I say that's true. They are MY emotions and I cannot control them.
My mom is one of the most wonderful person ever. She has been there for me always. She spends countless hours working so I can just have this laptop that I'm typing with. Even though she can be a pain, and can be really strict about what I do, she cares for me. She wants to protect me and now I understand. My mom is not dumb. I love her. And I don't care what other's think about her.
And my Aunt Lynda. She has been in my position over many situations, and she knows where I'm coming from. I appreciate that she stands up for me. She's a wonderful person. I have respect for her, and now days I barely get to see her, but I miss getting to spend time with her when I was little. I remember going to her little white house here in town, with her hamster. And I remember what her house smelled like. She tried to teach me how to drive on the country road, she taught me how to be more cleaner.
I just really want my family to get along. Where no one hates each other. Because me, Katelyn, is very emotional. It's been a long time since my family just had one thanksgiving with each other, but that won't happen. What I'm trying to say is, I want everyone to get along. And usually no one does. We shouldn't have an excuse where we can just say things about each other. That's wrong. And I'm like, 15? I've been maturing quite early..but if everyone gets along, it will help me and Michael to be less stressed and be happy. We've had our moments where we do wish that our parents were still together.
So, on this post where I said stuff back in December, I got super super stressed like crazy. I had to talk to this person about stuff that involves court and all of that. I hate court. I remember going into court when I was little, and I just bawled because I was scared. It was near Valentine's Day and Mom bought me a bear to comfort me. I was in 3rd grade...terrible experience.
And I don't want to go back there again honestly. And I don't want to hide something from my Mom. She's really important to me.
Pauline, I think she's a really nice lady. I mean, I probably did offend her, but I didn't really say anything really hurtful about her.
See, I had a boyfriend around Easter. It was awesome, it rocked. I was the happiest girl on the Earth. But, he cheated on me. Just like how my dad did to my mom. And it hurt sooooooooooo bad. And now I understand what my mom had to go through. Still today, I hurt.
I just don't know how I am going to handle taking this call. I really hate being sad...
P.S. this blog was not supposed to be hurtful in any way. please don't be offended. it's just my opinion.
Especially when they don't get along. At all.
I mean, I hate it when they say like, "Don't tell them this." or "Don't tell this blahblahblah." Both of them do that. It drives me insane. I hate keeping secrets from the both of them or I'd get in trouble by either parent.
My emotions about the divorce has been bottled up for years, and it's true.
I barely get to see my Dad like every other daughter gets to everyday.
I'm tired of my mom being stressed out from work trying to support us with our needs
I'm sick of the constant arguments.
And sometimes, I feel like..a terrible daughter. Like, I get in trouble for what I say that's true. They are MY emotions and I cannot control them.
My mom is one of the most wonderful person ever. She has been there for me always. She spends countless hours working so I can just have this laptop that I'm typing with. Even though she can be a pain, and can be really strict about what I do, she cares for me. She wants to protect me and now I understand. My mom is not dumb. I love her. And I don't care what other's think about her.
And my Aunt Lynda. She has been in my position over many situations, and she knows where I'm coming from. I appreciate that she stands up for me. She's a wonderful person. I have respect for her, and now days I barely get to see her, but I miss getting to spend time with her when I was little. I remember going to her little white house here in town, with her hamster. And I remember what her house smelled like. She tried to teach me how to drive on the country road, she taught me how to be more cleaner.
I just really want my family to get along. Where no one hates each other. Because me, Katelyn, is very emotional. It's been a long time since my family just had one thanksgiving with each other, but that won't happen. What I'm trying to say is, I want everyone to get along. And usually no one does. We shouldn't have an excuse where we can just say things about each other. That's wrong. And I'm like, 15? I've been maturing quite early..but if everyone gets along, it will help me and Michael to be less stressed and be happy. We've had our moments where we do wish that our parents were still together.
So, on this post where I said stuff back in December, I got super super stressed like crazy. I had to talk to this person about stuff that involves court and all of that. I hate court. I remember going into court when I was little, and I just bawled because I was scared. It was near Valentine's Day and Mom bought me a bear to comfort me. I was in 3rd grade...terrible experience.
And I don't want to go back there again honestly. And I don't want to hide something from my Mom. She's really important to me.
Pauline, I think she's a really nice lady. I mean, I probably did offend her, but I didn't really say anything really hurtful about her.
See, I had a boyfriend around Easter. It was awesome, it rocked. I was the happiest girl on the Earth. But, he cheated on me. Just like how my dad did to my mom. And it hurt sooooooooooo bad. And now I understand what my mom had to go through. Still today, I hurt.
I just don't know how I am going to handle taking this call. I really hate being sad...
P.S. this blog was not supposed to be hurtful in any way. please don't be offended. it's just my opinion.
Friday, February 12, 2010
SPECIAL THINGS I WOULD LIKE TO SAAAAY. :)
Ahem...
I'd just like to saaay.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SELENA ELYSE PETTERS!
AGAIN! :)
It took me a while to put the all the letters in a rainbow haha.
I wish I had a picture with her. D: But, I will get one in August. :) WHOO!
I think this is a pretty picture of her though. :3
I'd just like to saaay.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SELENA ELYSE PETTERS!
AGAIN! :)
It took me a while to put the all the letters in a rainbow haha.
I wish I had a picture with her. D: But, I will get one in August. :) WHOO!
I think this is a pretty picture of her though. :3
I hope she has a wonderful day. She's the awesomest person ever. She's helped me a lot to the point where I just feel better about myself. And I really appreciate everything that she has done for me. :)
Anywaaaaaays. The past weeks have been confusing, but a lot better now. :D Today Britney and I had a lot of fun in the library for study hall hahahahaha. We made a random HILARIOUS card for Ammon. I called him a 'CHI-MO', (inside joke) and Britney drew a piece of poop on the back of the card. O___O Why? I have nooooo idea. But, we're weird like that. And he appreciated the card. :) But I had a weird creepy laugh when I gave it to him. x___x
Other random things, is I am starting to go back to my regular church again. :) The last time I went, I was happy. I missed everyone there, and everyone missed me. It was an awesome experience to be back again. I'm just going to go there from here on out, even if I have to go alone. My mom has been stressed about me looking through waaaay too many churches.
But this Sunday I am going to church with the Kunz's. :D
Well. If I don't post on Valentine's Day, HAPPY EARLY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE. :)
Imma eatin' pizza rolls and they are yummy. :D I have "Imma Be" by the Blackeyed Peas stuck in my head. I blame it on Savannah. >______> Hahaha.
Well. This is it. Goodbye. :)
<3 LOOOOOOOOOOOVE!
Anywaaaaaays. The past weeks have been confusing, but a lot better now. :D Today Britney and I had a lot of fun in the library for study hall hahahahaha. We made a random HILARIOUS card for Ammon. I called him a 'CHI-MO', (inside joke) and Britney drew a piece of poop on the back of the card. O___O Why? I have nooooo idea. But, we're weird like that. And he appreciated the card. :) But I had a weird creepy laugh when I gave it to him. x___x
Other random things, is I am starting to go back to my regular church again. :) The last time I went, I was happy. I missed everyone there, and everyone missed me. It was an awesome experience to be back again. I'm just going to go there from here on out, even if I have to go alone. My mom has been stressed about me looking through waaaay too many churches.
But this Sunday I am going to church with the Kunz's. :D
Well. If I don't post on Valentine's Day, HAPPY EARLY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE. :)
Imma eatin' pizza rolls and they are yummy. :D I have "Imma Be" by the Blackeyed Peas stuck in my head. I blame it on Savannah. >______> Hahaha.
Well. This is it. Goodbye. :)
<3 LOOOOOOOOOOOVE!
Monday, February 8, 2010
Everything is better. :)
I think things are okay now.
Which makes Katelyn happy! =D
Soo. Selena turns 15 this Saturday. I am excited.
I sent her present days ago.
I joined this neopet site that Phyll suggested me to. Haha.
The Super Bowl was probably my biggest sad thing this week.
I wanted the Colts to win. D: But. Oh well.
I'm not a huge fan of either teams but psssht.
Uhh. So I found things that I have lost. I have lost my:
MP3
Earphones
Camera bag
Memory card to my camera
And for a while I lost my control to my emotions. D:
Well. I found all. Cept my MP3. >___> I lived without it for a week.
DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT FEELS? D:
So I rely on my laptop for music but I want to listen to my MP3 player before I go to bed. .___.
Sad sad. D:
Well, I guess that's all for now. :)
P.S. I cannot wait for August. :)
Which makes Katelyn happy! =D
Soo. Selena turns 15 this Saturday. I am excited.
I sent her present days ago.
I joined this neopet site that Phyll suggested me to. Haha.
The Super Bowl was probably my biggest sad thing this week.
I wanted the Colts to win. D: But. Oh well.
I'm not a huge fan of either teams but psssht.
Uhh. So I found things that I have lost. I have lost my:
MP3
Earphones
Camera bag
Memory card to my camera
And for a while I lost my control to my emotions. D:
Well. I found all. Cept my MP3. >___> I lived without it for a week.
DO YOU KNOW HOW THAT FEELS? D:
So I rely on my laptop for music but I want to listen to my MP3 player before I go to bed. .___.
Sad sad. D:
Well, I guess that's all for now. :)
P.S. I cannot wait for August. :)
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Disappointment...
Drama has gotten a lot worse.
I'm disappointed now. :(
I want to go somewhere else. Like, nao.
I feel bad. I tried my hardest to protect someone, but I wasn't good enough to help. I knew this would happen.
I hope you are okay. I don't know what happened...
This person, does not even care that he has hurt 3 people already...
and we were all close friends to him.
Is it worth to lose 3 friends over love?
Love isn't even worth it, it seems like these days. :/
I want to be happy again. :(
I'm disappointed now. :(
I want to go somewhere else. Like, nao.
I feel bad. I tried my hardest to protect someone, but I wasn't good enough to help. I knew this would happen.
I hope you are okay. I don't know what happened...
This person, does not even care that he has hurt 3 people already...
and we were all close friends to him.
Is it worth to lose 3 friends over love?
Love isn't even worth it, it seems like these days. :/
I want to be happy again. :(
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