SOMEONE HELP ME PLEEEEEASE.

I AM SO CONFUSED. >_____<
FML. I am always confused.

So. There is this guy who likes me, and wants to date me.
He's SUPER nice, one of he nicest guys in my school that are hard to find.
One of my friends told me about him. I was surprised actually.
I didn't think some guys would like me. Bahaha. I have low self-esteem.
Last night me and this guy talked. It was cute, and awkward actually.
He found ways to make me blush. Then, he got on the topic of my past.
.......................
._________.
Apparently EVERYONE knows what happened. And everyone knows
that it torn me to pieces. They don't know everything. But he started talking to me about it.
Like, if I still had feelings for 'him', he would help me through it. Then I'm just like...
do I still have feelings for him? AND I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO. But, sooo it's hard.
I'm so tired of thinking that I may have feelings for him. It makes me sad.
A couple days ago Lexi, one of my friends said
she understands if I still do, because it was a pretty long relationship,
for kids in High School. I don't really know if I do or not....
Then again, I think really like this guy. I just have to get to know him better and see what happens.

On a happier note, Happy Halloween everyone!!!!!! :D

I MISSED MY LAPTOP. D:

I HAS IT BACK NOW THOUGH. :D

I am suuuuuuper happy. :) And a lot has happened since I got it taken away from me.

McDonald's has opened hahaha.
Selena is now a vegetarian.
Ammon and I are okay now.
The Halloween Party was awesome.
I am soon becoming un-grounded.
Megan is starting college finally.
I ordered an awesome yellow bridesmaid's dress
for my mom's wedding.
I think I like someone. O___O :)
And.
THIS IS IT came out in theatres. :)
But, I don't know if I'm going to see it.
I have to ask my mom first, and maybe have some people go with me.

:) YAY.

So. Halloween Party. Was awesome. Phyll did my make up freakin' awesome. It made me look SUPER ASIAN. :D Although, I was really pale. I'm sorta tan-ish. I had to leave early though. :( But. My mom was like, 'You were home on time. Good job. You get your laptop back.' :D Well. That makes me happy. But Cyza came later. He should have came as Edward Cullen hahaha. :)
It would have been awesome. I swear...he looks like Edward Cullen. Still.

I AM SUPER HAPPY! :D
I think I am stress-free from drama now.
This means I can do my homework even better now. :) AHH.
Quarter 2 is going to be better. Because...quarter 1 was crappehhhh.
And. I think I know who I want to go to Holiday with. :3
But. I am shy. So....UGH.

When frustration and confusion are mixed up into one.

Why?
Still. I ask that same question like, every single day.
It's been, like almost a month now? And the drama hasn't ended yet.
Now. I'm not really a person involved. I'm stuck in the middle. Friends are involved in it, I try to help. And when I try to help something else happens and BLAAAAAH.
I thought it would be over by now, and everyone would be content.
Generally the drama is caused by someone's actions? Doesn't that person get the clue YET? It's not okay when a person can just, walk off and go after something else. :/ I wouldn't do that. I couldn't.

Today I have mixed emotions and stuff. I really can't wait for this year to be over. It's been sucky. With all this drama. Soon, I know that God will get me out of this ordeal, but most importantly for friend to get out of it.
To top this all off, I am grounded. I cannot talk to this person everyday to make sure she's okay and stuff.
GAH.


This whole thing makes me want to punch a baby.
D: I wouldn't do that though.

Please God, help us pleeeeeeeeeeease. :/

D:

Dear blogging world,

Sorry I has no update in like, a week. D:
Right now life has been boring. I'm currently grounded.
So most of my time I am at home watching TV being lazy. And today I watched Tarzan. I loved it. :3 BAHAHA. I love you Selena. :)

Lately I have been practicing on my driving. Usually I would have no time because each day I would be out with friends or being gone for pep band. Now. I am awesome at driving. Well, actually I have been since driver's ed. Well, not really. HAHA. I was a SCARY driver then.

Today our Life Skills class went on a field trip to the prison in Lincoln. It was CREEPY. Seriously. The fences there are WICKED. The little springy things at the top are like 100 times bigger than a toy slinky! O__________O And the inmates there are creepy. I was scared. My heart was pounding fast the whole time. I didn't want to die. Then this lady had to search us. She touched our...O__O Yeah. Our 'girls' here up top. It. Was. Uncomfortable.
OH. We went to Super Valentino's also. The fire alarms went off. I was like, 'WTF. Where is the fire?' Apparently, the cooks in the kitchen had a minor fire. The alarm was annoying. I got ice cream. I overflowed the bowl with caramel, chocolate, butterscotch, sprinkes, and of course ICE CREAM. Twist ice cream. YUUUUM. I made a mess that went down to my elbows. AMAZING.

Today. I had tons of retarded moments. Like, today. Michael called me stupid. >______> Tracy usually gets hi for that. Then I'm like saad and everything. 'Tracy...Michael called me stupid again like earlier..." :(. Tracy's like, no he didn't. He called you RETARDED like 2 minutes ago. D:
OHMYGOSH. It was hilarious. But, it was sad at the same time. HAHAHA. Only I would be THAT stupid at times. >____<

For halloween I'm going to be Snow White. :D I'm excited. Phyll is doing my make up.
It.
Will.
Be.
Awesome. :D

Oh. And what I have noticed that ticks me off. My 'M' button on my laptop isn't working well. So I have to push it hard twice or 3 times. It makes me paranoid.
>________<

Okay. I go beddy bye now. It's early for me usually. But I went to sleep at 1 last night. I'm super super duper tired.
Goodnight, world. :3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KATIE! (:

Okay. So, yesterday I was sooo busy. I didn't get a chance to post a special blog for you, Katie. (: Even though I texted you saying happy birthday, and telling you happy birthday each time I saw yer face. But I wanted to post a special bloooooog. :D Well, I was online at mid-night when I got home...but when I got on I just turned my laptop off and slept like a baby. ^_^

Sooo...HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU SEXY BEAST. You are now 16. So rub it in my face. ): I am so young. And you can drive as soon as I can. FML haha. (:

Hahaha. Katie and I were trying to be sexy models for Lupe's car. xD I think we succeeded at that part. Riiiiiight? (:

Overall, we had a great time celebrating her birthday while we ate at El Portal with 10 people. We watched 'The Hangman's Curse' afterwards. And. I thought it was going to be super super scary. If you are a HUUUGE fan of scary movies that make you wanna crap your pants, I wouldn't recommend it. It's a good movie, it makes you think though. But if you want something REALLY scary, then don't watch it. (: Everything went well. T he only thing that went wrong was Hannahkinz got sick who is the host for the sleep over. ): We were going to have a combined birthday party/sleep over for both Hannah and Katie, but Hannah caught the flu (possibly from me D:). But today I got to see her, and she is just doing fine. Heather, Hannah and I went on a little mini photo adventure at Arbor Lodge. Heather left her key in the car while her car was locked. So she had to call her dad and when her dad answered she thought it was Ammon. Ummmm....awkward? Everything is awkward when someone mentions Ammon now days xD But it was actually it was Mr. Kunz. He sounded so young on the phone today. Hahaha. He came 10 minutes later, and he grew a beard. O__________O I haven't seen him since..a couple weeks? And he has a beard. >_> I was paranoid. I wasn't used to his random beardyness. xD
Then later I went to Phyll's house eating chinese food! :D And watched Pride and Prejudice. I was sooooo tired. And I was tempted to sleep when Phyll's mom was sleeping on the couch. But, Pride and Prejudice was soo good, I didn't fall asleep. (:

Right now my little brother's friend is sleeping over. SUPER FML.
That means they'll be reaaaaaally loud during the night. And I have to get up at 7:00 in the morning to get ready for church at St. Mary's, then Phyll wants to go the Esopical Church. I think that's how you spell it. >_<>

Selena Elyse Petters.....^_^

IS MY BEST FRIEND! (:

:D
I LOVE YEW.
<3

Blech. D:

Today I am stuck at home, sick. D: I have the stomach flu and a cold combined. >_> I woke up this morning and I just BLEEEEEEECH. I frew up. :(
And I have been sleeping lots and lots. I got 12 hours of sleep. :3 Hahahahaha.
Well. Other than that,
yesterday Katie and I went on a PHOTO ADVENTURE in Arbor Lodge! ^_^
I <3 photo adventures.

Here are some of them:


I post de rest on facebook. ^_^



And...lately things have been okay. The weekend was fast. Our band this year for Harvest of Harmony wasn't so good as last year. :/ WE WERE AWESOME LAST YEAR. But, I guess we were generally okay this year. Tyler is in Idaho all this week. He's been helping me to be happy. (: So, this week, I'll miss him. D: Then, I think Hannah is finally having her birthday party this weekend? Last year's was FUUUN! And hopefully my mother will let me go to the concert in Omaha that last until 2 in the morning. :P If she doesn't, I will cry. D: Other than that, if I feel better tomorrow, school will be boring and I dun wanna go back. :/
OHMYGOSH. The phone just rang, and it was an unknown caller. It's something for my mom with this lady that speaks Vietnamese. I kinda understand it..but not really. It makes me paranoid when I don't understand it that well!!! >_< So. I can't wait to learn it this summer. :P


OHHH! AND I GOT THIS AWESOME PANDA HOODIE BAG FROM HOT TOPIC! :D His name is Pony. (: Katie helped me name it...then she was like...NO. But, I came up with this studly awesome idea: PONY PWNS OTHER BAGS. :D Yeah. Pony pwns. ^_^ I love him! ROFLMAO.

Photography. :D And some other random stuff. And me rambling. :P

So. This week I started taking pictures with my crappy pink camera.
My mom has been REALLY thinking..that she might get me an awesome SLR camera.
:DDDDD
I'm so excited. I'll be posting random awesome pictures that I took and edited on here.
Maybe facebook too. I dunno I'm debating.

Here are some of them :
An alley behind my house. This picture, is my FAVORITE.

The brick road that I live on. I love brick roads. Sooo much. :)

My shadoooooooow. :)



I love this one. :)

Let's just say, that I am REALLY happy now. I found soo many friends who cared and I made so many new ones lately, then I realized that this jerk wasn't really worth it. Everyone says that. At least 3 times a day. And they're right.
I shouldn't have made it into a big deal. But whoever girl dates him next, I just gotta say: GOOD LUCK with thaaaaaat. :P

Today Lupe, (Loopay) Katie, Britney, and myself went to El Portal. It was amazing. And the food was, like alwaaaaaays. (: We tried this Ocheta drink. It was freakin' goooooood. Everyone at our table tried speaking Spanish when we ordered food. Well, me and Britney = FAIL. Lupe and Katie = PRO. Spanish is Lupe's main language. And Katie is taking German 1. And I fail. >_> Gaaah.
This Saturday our school band is going on a LOOOOOOONG trip to Grand Island. I'm excited. Even though I have to get up at 5 in the morning on a Saturdaaaaay. >_< I just love playing in the parade there. It's a lot bigger than any other parades of the year. Plus. We go to the mall afterwards. :D YAAAAAAAAY. :)

Okay. I'm getting tired. So. That's all. :)
Baibai. :D